两年前，我一个人飞来纽西兰这个完全陌生的鬼地方，离开了我20多年住的雪兰莪，离开了我亲爱的家人，离开了我的宝贝床，离开了我认识10多年的朋友，离开了一起读3年的大学朋友。这个鬼地方除了他以外，熟的朋友没有几个，家人又不在身边，最依赖的就是他。可是今天却换来他的一句话：

你别用你那双鱼座的性格和想法，把你梦想中浪漫的白马王子放在我的身上

做人千万别靠别人！别靠别人！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

stupid!

She is really stupid.. She always hopes that she can spend time alone with him whenever she can. But he always just hopes to go out with friends whenever he is free. He always think of friends first. He always expects her to go out with him when he goes out with friends and then when she complaint that he always just goes out with friends, then he will say he always wanna bring her go together just that she doesnt want to go out with his friends. He is so selfish, and she is so stupid.

She doesnt mind if like every week he goes out with his friends once or two nights but at least when she got the holiday or day off, she really hopes that they can go out or spend time dating together but not with whole gang of friends! In his mind he will just think of his friends first and then just ask her to go together as a company as a 'pameran'! This is not what she wants!

He always wanna save money or complain spend too much money when he is with her but he doesnt mind spending money when he goes out with friends. Priority always goes to his friends first. He just wants to do acitivity with his friends, will plan will think what to do with his friends but when goes to her, he will very seldom or cincai plan. He always spend more time with his friends but not with her.

Silly girl, can u please wake up?!!!! Dont always think of him anymore plz!!! Guys are always jual ikan!!!

她说

日子久了，感情会变淡，他不会像之前那样疼爱你，你说的话不会像以前那样每个字都被记得清清楚楚，他会常常对你发脾气，敷衍你，不再对你关怀备至，他对你的态度会让你觉得完全没有安全感，你会觉得他不爱你了不珍惜你了，你会觉得他变了。。。

男人们，是真的吗？

真的一次又一次，前几天才那样，今天又重复。不说被骂；说了又被驳回，被骂，被遗忘，又重复。那说了有用吗？她真的那么不需要被重视, 不需要被关心, 等你记得她的时候才来找她, 不需要她的时候就把她给忘了, 抛到远远去了吗?

接二连三, 一次又一次, 眼睛已经承受不了了, 更何况是身心呢? 遍体鳞伤, 伤痕累累, 好累, 承受不了了!!!