人很复杂，要去了解一个人很难很复杂。自己一个人跑来了云顶做工，有时候很孤单一下的，要迁就做工的时间和同事，又要去看他的脾气，要被他骂，要受他的气，我好累，我真的好累！

最近很不开心。有一个好朋友去世了，然后又有一些私人的问题，让我烦上加烦，根本就不能真的很开心。昨晚睡不着的时候，脑海里一直出现我那去世了的朋友，一直想回我们从刚认识到蛮熟的地步。真的不敢相信她真的走了，她真的离开了这个世界。。。她才刚结婚不到三年，今年31岁。她是那么的年轻，漂亮，心肠好，太可惜了。我真的不太能接受她去世了。。。。。

有时候我希望我有个翅膀，带着我在乎的人离开不开心的地方，飞去一个新的又开心的地方。。。

She was once my best colleague.. After i resigned, we still got keep contact with each other.. 3 years, we sent email to each other, shopping, makan, minum.. When i need help, she surely give me a helping hand.. When my mum met an accident last year, she went to visit her.. I was so shocked that this morning she has passed away :( Last year december when she told me that she has a cancer, she lost her weight, she was so suffer, but i totally didnt think that she will pass away.. That time i didnt have transp to go visit her and i oso didnt know how to go to her house.. (I know it is not an excuse!) She told me that she has no energy to talk.. So, in my mind, i always think that she needs rest, better dun cal her dun disturb her.. I got think maybe i can just email her husband or cal her husband..but i just think and didnt do it... I tot that the nxt time when i see her will be at her house, she is recovered.... Im so regret now... I should cal her or visit her..... I feel so bad now.... :(

She is a nice gal..... RIP my dear fren.....

Independent is wat in my mind now........

Almost everytime when i need him the most, he was not here wf me..Somehow i even couldnt get to talk to him...sometimes i will TRY to tell him all my feelings by texting him (so far highest record is 10 sms) but then didnt get any responses from him because his hp no credit or maybe will get his feedback of 1-2 sentence(s)...already feel very fed up and upset of this kind of feeling...i have to face all the problems alone...funny! tired! fed up!!!